just a day in a life | random rambles

dreading finding a job. i’m so over whelmed !! ughhhhhhhhhhhhhh

“This is the thing: When you hit 28 or 30, everything begins to divide. You can see very clearly two kinds of people. On one side, people who have used their 20s to learn and grow, to find … themselves and their dreams, people who know what works and what doesn’t, who have pushed through to become real live adults. Then there’s the other kind, who are hanging onto college, or high school even, with all their might. They’ve stayed in jobs they hate, because they’re too scared to get another one. They’ve stayed with men or women who are good but not great, because they don’t want to be lonely. … they mean to develop intimate friendships, they mean to stop drinking like life is one big frat party. But they don’t do those things, so they live in an extended adolescence, no closer to adulthood than when they graduated.

Don’t be like that. Don’t get stuck. Move, travel, take a class, take a risk. There is a season for wildness and a season for settledness, and this is neither. This season is about becoming. Don’t lose yourself at happy hour, but don’t lose yourself on the corporate ladder either. Stop every once in a while and go out to coffee or climb in bed with your journal.

Ask yourself some good questions like: “Am I proud of the life I’m living? What have I tried this month? … Do the people I’m spending time with give me life, or make me feel small? Is there any brokenness in my life that’s keeping me from moving forward?”

Now is your time. Walk closely with people you love, and with people who believe … life is a grand adventure. Don’t get stuck in the past, and don’t try to fast-forward yourself into a future you haven’t yet earned. Give today all the love and intensity and courage you can, and keep traveling honestly along life’s path.”
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Relevant magazine (via charliebravo)

i hate it when certain people.. that retarded in their thinking process, decide to be all ‘righteous’. i don’t have the perfect perception of everything but i’m open minded and i try not to judge people. all you folks that have a blatantly skewed perception of shit can’t suddenly resort to religion and meditation and other bullshit, not that these methods are bullshit but you thinking that reading some book or going to some temple is really going to change your narrow mind.  it blows my mind.. you can’t just resort to these philosophies that you know nothing about and adopt shit just like that. i mean, i see the effort.. but you won’t change. cus it’s not who you are. and the fact that it’s something so far removed from your actual beliefs.. this is not a joke or something to just wander into. this is real shit that people study, believe in, worship, and such. and you think you can just mosey on into a library and suddenly your changed. arrogant fckrs. same types of people. very upsetting.. i can’t ..

i’m really enjoying my internship. to be apart of something bigger and watching it unfold.. how dorky do i sound ?  this is what I like (:

So incredibly over the bullshit omg. I’m such a drama free person. At least I try to be but drama always seems to find me. I need to busy myself with other things and people cus this is such bull and I’m above it. Fck this

im not holding on cus i like you so much

it’s cus i have no one else to hold on to

.. yeah that kinda sounds sad #truth

at least am as honest w myself as i can be

how do i break this down right quick ?

I’m only taking one class this semester. It’s the finally one. The big kahuna. The class that sums up all my ‘4’ (actually 5) years of business classes, concepts and theories. And then… That’s it. I graduate as an undergrad w my BBA from Temple University in Philadelphia.
It’s interesting because I’ve been passing the time by shopping, eating, working out, chilling, sleeping, watching tv, reading even … But my dad keeps insisting I do something productive w my time (the time that I have so much of). What is productivity anyway? He defines it as getting a job and making at least 7 bucks an hour. But I feel like I have been productive… Getting back to me. Discovering things I didn’t know about myself. Picking up old hobbies and creating new ones. Hanging out w my friends and laughing till we can’t take in air cause that is the best medicine. I want to get back to my roots and be happy. Life is all about self discovery and not just making a place in society but creating the most of life and what God has given us.
I’m productively getting to know me

reverting back into my old ways … 

i had resolutions ! 

it’s a new year

i can only make it go in the direction i want

i make my own future 

i choose my destiny and control how i choose to act and react